Generations of women before and after me

I was taking a picture of A.K. and an ancient  A.K. and there was one even before...(Generations of women before and after me)
Then an attractive man appears:
-You are very thin...-I say to him.
-Yes, I am eating only organic meat, no more industrial meat, I have my own mind.
-And your head looks quite funny..."-I say  and want to hold him by his legs while he is floating.

THERE ARE OTHER MEMBERS OF THE FAMILY (watching).
15.04.2012

...until the end of the world.
23.03.2012

Tlatzolteotl

19.01.2011

crochet blanket

-Do you really want to stay more in Puebla? here is nothing more to do...-I ask some cool gallerists...
-yes!we haven't finish and we are not in a rush.
I am having a hug on top of a crochet blanket with an indigenous idol, in a poor place.
15.05.2012

new part of the house

19.03.2012

19.03.2012

Until the End of the World

...we were really high in an art studio, we could see the summit of the Salève or of the Tepozteco. I am wearing an old black dress full of paint stains like the milky way...
the artist friend offers me his love but I decline the invitation and invite him to see the most amazing cosmic phenomena: the sun and an other star or planet coinciding in the sky, until The End of the World. 
23.03.12

Art advise

Allá arriba/ Up there someone is watching us:

Me or her/a friend Artist is giving me advise(I dont know how or what to do): 

« - How can I do it? I can do some mexican skulls on a piece of paper like the one I use for my drawings… »

«- No, you have to do them with polystyrene, with volume to make them very real.-she tells me”

15.04.08

I am trying to lock a very squalid door to protect myself and my son from a hungry lyon.(2)30.04.2012

outside help

12.2011

            














Tlatzolteotl, luminosa y cansada, a punto de dar a luz...
2010

working women

I was discovering or trying to discover a new place...old places, old architecture to find a new place for me and at the end I found a factory full of women completely immerse in their work.

8.3.12

Volcán

cráter de un volcán dormido


6.12.11

L&E

We are together, we are fine, we think about you!
10.09.2010.

T. me amaba otra vez, me había perdonado (first true love). 25.05.07

Mi madre invitaba a M.C.(inspired artist) a ayudarla a arreglar unas fotos y entonces él venía y no dejábamos de estar juntos . 
26.05.07

feminicidio

After looking at a long series of female corpses. A man  said to me: "You don't have to see the rest. Is enough!"

dream after seeing "La casa de la fuerza" de Angelica Liddell...
(nightmare)
15.09.11

henhouse

...soñé con mi papá, estaba en una casa pobre de San Manuel y tenía una actitud de contento y relajado.
Yo venía de lejos y no tenía donde vivir, entonces me decía que tenía que vivir con él pues así nuestra situación sería menos difícil, uniríamos fuerzas. Estaba M. y otros amigos, N. y G. y tenía que darles algo de comer, todo era precario pero había un ambiente humano agradable: helado de melón y galletas con queso que empezaba a distribuir y luego M. decía que ahí había habido una fiesta muy buena en un gallinero con nieve como cristal. Era la casa de mi papá y yo había al fin vuelto a ayudar, a devolver algo.
"Me voy a quedar a cuidarte hasta que seas viejito" le decía(and if there was no more food I was happy to go shopping to the local shop. I wanted to be helpful: nothing to be ashamed of, a precarious life but happy and grateful) snowed henhouse...there was a nice party.
20. 10. 11

Ñuñoa

estaba viajando por ciudades muy extensas latinoamericanas
donde quería encontrarme con mis amigos
son grupos que tienen su propia dinámica 
surgía la palabra Ñuñoa, el único lugar común

2006

M. all well organized in Mexico City, me and my dad homeless, a bit embarrassed...
complex city...salimos es un río el Río Rhone...
I had gone under a structure and got really claustrophobic and found some underdeveloped characters...


15.11.2011

...tes enfants sont oú?
they are waiting for you
a friend offers me a place where I can leave my baggage...
there still a long road ahead...
17.11.11

...and don't have to forget being present,
I have to try to be a present mother...
26.11.2011

...embryon-foetus
08.08.2011

"you never stop growing..."
exile + exile + daughter of exile...there was a lamp made of many old lamps, and many boxes full of documents of a common memory, our memory. A richness: "we had a culture world in common." 
23.09.11

T. was directing a theatre play with 3 parts and he told me I was in the part called: "I am".

25.10.2011

I am looking from outside through the window of the house in Xilotzingo, and I see with pain and envy how inside lives a happy family that has taken advantage of all the posibilities of the house...but suddenly I realize that there is a part that I did not sold...

27.10.2011

...there is a party in the night, near by, I am with R. and we can exchange lots of information through our anahata and vishuddha chackras, he is in the other side of the world. But I find out that we soon will be gone so we better get in peace with our closest loved ones.
1.11.2011

...I had a dress with many layers and I wanted to have one simpler, like the one of A.
...but then I realized that mine was the corresponding one, and quite unique and special.
Dreamed in Tepoztlán, Mexico 1997.
Drawn in Geneva, 2011.

I was sleeping in a new old house-room and when I wake up there was a huge owl...
1999
(collage done recently) 

Aurora

...B.is back and is just as kind as ever,there is a party in my father's house, a big house, people, lots of people come to say a last good bye.

A dark woman called Blanca(which means white), comes to me, she is not very beautiful, she has one white tooth but I am kind and loving towards her with all my heart...
some friends want to take me somewhere else but I say "no" because I have to take care of the house and I don't want any more china being destroyed...

19.09.2011

400 years

...a young woman touches my face around the nose and tells me:
"you have being living for 400 years"...
03.10.2011

Trophy-art

There was a Young Cool Artist producing Trophy-art
for New Smart Gallerist.
There was also a Good Artist, like a chick embrio...and my path was to follow more this immaterial one.

08.08.2011

Soñé que C. estaba a punto de dar a luz y parecía Tlatzolteotl...

very tired but full of light.

In bed with The Teacher

I am in a bed with The Teacher but I had pee myself... I try to leave without no one noticing... I'm walking towards a mirror, is an old house with and old mirror...

I will see myself in a mirror in my dream

is scary but I can't stop

and I see a woman-spirit getting rid of some layers, like bandages..dying? and under it is the light,

a pure ray of light.

16.08.11

Survivors

"everybody in the world is dead, is only a minority of us that has survived, we live in the roof of a building, tenemos que sobrevivir de cualquier cosa. En algún momento algunos consiguen chalecos finos de lana y cachemira, pero uno de ellos empieza a revolcarse en ellos, me da ravia, le digo : stop!... todos me miran como si estuviese loca. Digo que todos estos años he vivido con un chaleco de acrílico y que qué voy a hacer ahora que ya no hay más producción..que hay que cuidarlos. Todo es extremo, algunas personas comen gusanos de plantas (es porque he leído "Ensayo sobre la ceguera" de Saramago. Empiezo a ver cómo puedo ahorrar energía. No voy con los otros a un edificio de al lado. Escondo comida que encuentro, veo que podría tener sexo con algunos pero no lo hago... encuentro un saco de dormir y soy dichosa de dormir así en el techo y de repente aparece una..."

9.01.2011

a woman woman

29.07.2011

God cats

the cats of the house were two enormous cats...

2007

Alba

07.2011

no sueño

"Visión de los vencidos, relaciones indígenas de la conquista",

Miguel León-Portilla Ed Als.

Water Goddess

"you are an artist, make us a painting" a woman tells me and I start painting a cat, like a child's cat because I am so scared of not knowing how to paint...but once started I end up painting a water Goddess...etc, etc, etc

tzunami-earth.

23.06.2011

beare feet

...a mapuche woman(indigenous woman from the south of Chile) tells me:"we need your help, to draw some situations"...and I left my house in a rush in Beare Feet to walk in a normal street...ciudad, urbe, calle, city...

26.06.11

Casa Madre

Casa Madre : the old pre-hispanic house of Chile,

a jewel standing on a river in stagnation and with pollution

and I wonder how could have get to this point of neglect...

22.01.11

...M. me daba su casa,

era hermosa y antigua,

ahí E. me confesaba que era gay,

se veía hermoso también,

salíamos a caminar

hasta pasar cerca de la casa madre prehispánica de Chile

que se sostenía en palafitos

sobre un río

que se había convertido en puro estancamiento y contaminación...

ahí pensaba que cómo era posible tal descuido y abandono de tal joya...

22.01.2011

the mafia

...the mafia wanted to kill me and suddenly they get me

but is a dream so I can carry on again...

beautiful place

nature

me hiding in a school bus surrounded by "normal" parents.

6.06.11

perfect

I was perfect for someone to dance.

I was perfect for somebody else.

I just had to stop controlling the situation.

I could follow...

18.12.2010

artist&curator

...artist and (dead) curator...

2000?

Polar bear

...I am participating in a collective exhibition about ink drawing

and it feels so wright!

but then a big polar bear sits over me to remind me that I am dreaming

or that with global warming who gives a shit about more art.

But I continue to dream because is to good what I am dreaming...

and then I can't find my old friends but I become a nice girl with a nice boy...

26.05.11