Ñuñoa

estaba viajando por ciudades muy extensas latinoamericanas
donde quería encontrarme con mis amigos
son grupos que tienen su propia dinámica 
surgía la palabra Ñuñoa, el único lugar común

2006

M. all well organized in Mexico City, me and my dad homeless, a bit embarrassed...
complex city...salimos es un río el Río Rhone...
I had gone under a structure and got really claustrophobic and found some underdeveloped characters...


15.11.2011

...tes enfants sont oú?
they are waiting for you
a friend offers me a place where I can leave my baggage...
there still a long road ahead...
17.11.11

...and don't have to forget being present,
I have to try to be a present mother...
26.11.2011

...embryon-foetus
08.08.2011

"you never stop growing..."
exile + exile + daughter of exile...there was a lamp made of many old lamps, and many boxes full of documents of a common memory, our memory. A richness: "we had a culture world in common." 
23.09.11

T. was directing a theatre play with 3 parts and he told me I was in the part called: "I am".

25.10.2011

I am looking from outside through the window of the house in Xilotzingo, and I see with pain and envy how inside lives a happy family that has taken advantage of all the posibilities of the house...but suddenly I realize that there is a part that I did not sold...

27.10.2011

...there is a party in the night, near by, I am with R. and we can exchange lots of information through our anahata and vishuddha chackras, he is in the other side of the world. But I find out that we soon will be gone so we better get in peace with our closest loved ones.
1.11.2011

...I had a dress with many layers and I wanted to have one simpler, like the one of A.
...but then I realized that mine was the corresponding one, and quite unique and special.
Dreamed in Tepoztlán, Mexico 1997.
Drawn in Geneva, 2011.

I was sleeping in a new old house-room and when I wake up there was a huge owl...
1999
(collage done recently) 

Aurora

...B.is back and is just as kind as ever,there is a party in my father's house, a big house, people, lots of people come to say a last good bye.

A dark woman called Blanca(which means white), comes to me, she is not very beautiful, she has one white tooth but I am kind and loving towards her with all my heart...
some friends want to take me somewhere else but I say "no" because I have to take care of the house and I don't want any more china being destroyed...

19.09.2011

400 years

...a young woman touches my face around the nose and tells me:
"you have being living for 400 years"...
03.10.2011

Trophy-art

There was a Young Cool Artist producing Trophy-art
for New Smart Gallerist.
There was also a Good Artist, like a chick embrio...and my path was to follow more this immaterial one.

08.08.2011

Soñé que C. estaba a punto de dar a luz y parecía Tlatzolteotl...

very tired but full of light.

In bed with The Teacher

I am in a bed with The Teacher but I had pee myself... I try to leave without no one noticing... I'm walking towards a mirror, is an old house with and old mirror...

I will see myself in a mirror in my dream

is scary but I can't stop

and I see a woman-spirit getting rid of some layers, like bandages..dying? and under it is the light,

a pure ray of light.

16.08.11

Survivors

"everybody in the world is dead, is only a minority of us that has survived, we live in the roof of a building, tenemos que sobrevivir de cualquier cosa. En algún momento algunos consiguen chalecos finos de lana y cachemira, pero uno de ellos empieza a revolcarse en ellos, me da ravia, le digo : stop!... todos me miran como si estuviese loca. Digo que todos estos años he vivido con un chaleco de acrílico y que qué voy a hacer ahora que ya no hay más producción..que hay que cuidarlos. Todo es extremo, algunas personas comen gusanos de plantas (es porque he leído "Ensayo sobre la ceguera" de Saramago. Empiezo a ver cómo puedo ahorrar energía. No voy con los otros a un edificio de al lado. Escondo comida que encuentro, veo que podría tener sexo con algunos pero no lo hago... encuentro un saco de dormir y soy dichosa de dormir así en el techo y de repente aparece una..."

9.01.2011

a woman woman

29.07.2011

God cats

the cats of the house were two enormous cats...

2007

Alba

07.2011

no sueño

"Visión de los vencidos, relaciones indígenas de la conquista",

Miguel León-Portilla Ed Als.

Water Goddess

"you are an artist, make us a painting" a woman tells me and I start painting a cat, like a child's cat because I am so scared of not knowing how to paint...but once started I end up painting a water Goddess...etc, etc, etc

tzunami-earth.

23.06.2011

beare feet

...a mapuche woman(indigenous woman from the south of Chile) tells me:"we need your help, to draw some situations"...and I left my house in a rush in Beare Feet to walk in a normal street...ciudad, urbe, calle, city...

26.06.11

Casa Madre

Casa Madre : the old pre-hispanic house of Chile,

a jewel standing on a river in stagnation and with pollution

and I wonder how could have get to this point of neglect...

22.01.11

...M. me daba su casa,

era hermosa y antigua,

ahí E. me confesaba que era gay,

se veía hermoso también,

salíamos a caminar

hasta pasar cerca de la casa madre prehispánica de Chile

que se sostenía en palafitos

sobre un río

que se había convertido en puro estancamiento y contaminación...

ahí pensaba que cómo era posible tal descuido y abandono de tal joya...

22.01.2011

the mafia

...the mafia wanted to kill me and suddenly they get me

but is a dream so I can carry on again...

beautiful place

nature

me hiding in a school bus surrounded by "normal" parents.

6.06.11

perfect

I was perfect for someone to dance.

I was perfect for somebody else.

I just had to stop controlling the situation.

I could follow...

18.12.2010

artist&curator

...artist and (dead) curator...

2000?

Polar bear

...I am participating in a collective exhibition about ink drawing

and it feels so wright!

but then a big polar bear sits over me to remind me that I am dreaming

or that with global warming who gives a shit about more art.

But I continue to dream because is to good what I am dreaming...

and then I can't find my old friends but I become a nice girl with a nice boy...

26.05.11

Discovery

I was loosing lots of my molars and I could not put them back!

it was really worrying................................................artist career

then I could see my molars and they where really in a bad state

with even like a little message inside of them, like powder, red old earth...!

like and archaeological

discovery.

3.05.2011

visiting R.

... I was visiting the show 'Hogar dulce hogar" ("Home sweet home" a show I participated in 1995) with R.... I was with some friends in Mexico City, and I was asking him if he was going to stay there...

But R. tells me that we are going to go... or that he is going to the mountain and he is carrying a bag with cabbage and rice..

6.04.11

levitation&poetry

...a powerful witch is making us levitate

she liked me and accepted me just the way I was,

M.G. sais "poetry" and leaves the room.

10.03.2011

I could come back

...to some telluric lands in Tepoztlán o Cuernavaca

because my aunt was back there. There was an inner swimming pool very old. Everything was made with ancient stones. My cousin is there innocent and happy has she used to be.The water looks a bit to dark and scary but my father was swimming there simple, humble, young, in good faith as usual, and then I go in to the water and there is an inner current that connects the "swimming pond" with the sea..the pressure pushes me against the stones, my leg hurts...I have to wake up...

31.03.2011

Bare nature

no water

no food

no mattress

I wonder how long we can stay like that...

bare floor

left overs of 70's architecture

bare nature, cold

the fathers where there but I couldn't see them

nothing but landscape

coping

and I found a little bit of clean water and I use it to wash a baby.

26.03.11

To many people

...we are a gang, very nice and cool, see?

and there is even now a hippie with long hair in the family, which means is impossible now to move so many people.

we are to many, we can't

MY FAMILY

(to heavy)

BLANCA Y FACUNDO's car is not big enough

(to many people).

1999.

la envidia

...tenía que trabajar con el tema que era mi debilidad: la envidia.

Zermatt 25.12.06

...I had to work with the theme that was my weak point: envy.

Zermatt 25.12.06

Mujer de éxito?

Mujer de éxito?

Muchos zapatos.

oct 1999

more parties

"....you need to go more to parties"

like an Avatar girl told me who was growing really fast.

27.01.2011

Casa madre

...M. me daba su casa,

era hermosa y antigua,

ahí E. me confesaba que era gay,

se veía hermoso también,

salíamos a caminar

hasta pasar cerca de la casa madre prehispánica de Chile

que se sostenía en palafitos

sobre un río

que se había convertido en puro estancamiento y contaminación...

ahí pensaba que cómo era posible tal descuido y abandono de tal joya...

22.01.2011

A hole filled by war

The crisis created a hole which was in the middle of Europe and that hole was going to be filled by war.

26.01.2009

big spiky weeds

...I climb some bricolage stairs

TO MEET MY FRIENDS FROM A COLLECTIVE ART GROUP

UP STAIRS IS TO FRAGILE

(my grand father is there)

then I go down the stairs and I discover that some huge and thick big spiky weeds have being invading

the house from underneath for quite a while.

7.2.10

unsuspected things

The mirror maker, Primo Levi

Our dreams

The mirror maker, Primo Levi

Forgive

I could still party and be cool...but I needed to forgive...

10.01.11

Antes

...voy caminando en la noche por una gran ciudad cruzando puentes y barrios llenos de desconocidos.

Voy caminando en la noche: veo a un hombre con un ojo golpeado.

-Oigo gritos viniendo desde el fondo de un edificio, pregunto: qué sucede?

me contestan que es un loco que está matando uno a uno a las personas que se encuentran o encontraban en el supermercado.

-Luego soy una exótica e interesante invitada en la casa de Carlos Fuentes.

-Luego estoy en la casa de mi madre donde están varios de sus amigos estilo "intelectuales de izquierda" y yo con los pechos desnudos y caídos despúes de amamantar, me averguenzo y trato de esconderlos.

Mi madre es parte de un tribunal y me acaricia y ama.

Me dice:

-que no está mal tener los pechos caídos...

-que es algo muy bueno.

yo me siento muy querida y muy feliz!

T.V.:

En la noche antes de dormirme ví la serie de "Los Soprano" y en ella, Toni Soprano sueña que está con su madre, tetona que lo ama y lo cuida. Mientras tanto en la realidad su madre está haciendo todo lo posible para que lo maten.

24. sept.1999

no me abandono

"...estaba tratando de arreglarme los dientes pues tenía al interior de mi boca todos los dientes superiores y de enfrente sueltos. Trataba de metérmelos en las cavidades empujándomelos con los dedos. Era muy preocupante pues eran mis únicos dientes. Era de vida o muerte. Entonces los sostenía con mis dedos un buen rato ejerciendo presión y quedaba casi satisfecha. Los dientes estaban aún "vivos" así que se pegaban otra vez a mi cuerpo. Pero justo antes de despertar hay un diente que no estoy segura de que esté pegado: es mi colmillo izquierdo.

20 enero 2008.